Dear Friends and views of my page,
I Will Start my first serous Entry with a little peace of my past.
Christmas 2 years ago was the last time i remember crying, i was told i had ruined Christmas. i still fear i might do it again.

I am currently sitting at my desk crying and also quivering. its 3:54 AM and i can say calmly i have broken sense the current man i was yesterday, the day before, or that day before that.

IT was either Mike, you know how you are. or The movie the cable guy that has caused me to get pushed over the edge and snap. I cried lacking a person to hold i held my self. The sad I feebly laid on top of bed and blanket. I feel weak even as i type it now, its 9:33 of the same day in the morning.

I am Alone, I hurt, Saddened And lonely. I tried to stop this feeling from ever coming back. The Emotion were one require one.

Im sorry it you read this and only see a sad little boy, i hope i have not effected your mood. Im feeling quite fragile, like a baby rose freshly frozen.

Brad Parsons